it feels just like before.

you know when you have a get instinct that something isnt right, when you know that you will get hurt in the end you just dont know how and when. yea its happenings again. somewhere in me still believes he loves her. that deep down he thinks about her and if maybe she wasnt in san diego they would still be together. ah why do i always get myself hurt. esp with the people i want the most. he always talks about her, he doesnt even know it. its funny cause he says he doesnt want to talk to her but he gets excited when she does, does it really take that long to text someone. i mean i was laying right there. he held me as he texted her back he thought about her as i laid right next to him. he loved her. i believe he still does.