it just keeps on getting worse.

o God this is so hard. i dont understand matt's mom. she kicks him out of the house because he was talking to his dad on the phone. so now hes living with his dad at his one room studio. he doesnt have a cell phone and car anymore. i dont know what is going to happen. i truly hope that he will be okie, i want him to be happy and things just keep getting worse. he deserves so much. and i cant help but wonder what will happen to us. i dont want to seem selfish but it makes everything harder. everything is just going wrong. despite everything i still want to be with him, more than anyone knows.

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okie so heres how crazy this is. matts sister, whom he hates, calls me worried about matt. she basically tells me he and their father are crazy and that i should watch out for certain things. shes worried about him and shes taking the responsibility of taking care of all of this. she also tells me that on new years he flew out his ex girlfriend but he treated her like shit. i dont understand. she tells me hes changed but i dont know him otherwise. i dont know what to think about him or what she says. i dont know if he has a disorder and i dont if matt lies to me. im more worried than ever of him and what hes going to do. i dont know who to trust because i dont know his sister and i dont know if he lies to me. omg this is crazy. i dont know what to do.