what if.

have u ever had those moments when you thought: what if things were different between you and a friend? for a quick moment u wondered if things would work out? or if youd like it? those moments will leave you wondering for years, and maybe in the future you'll wish you did something. i'll always have that 'what if' about him. maybe if 'that' didn't happen freshmen year this would never have crossed my mind. o my gosh. i burned those letters for a reason. maybe im in denial and wished things were different. i wonder if its just me whos thinking is. probably. ahhh i should get over this. me and him will never be. i dont want us to have anything. it would just ruin things. there i got it out. im over it.